Post by jonata on Apr 17, 2021 12:27:50 GMT -5
BABUSHKA -
LAST SUMMER WAS AWFUL
LAST SUMMER WAS AWFUL
Lançamento: 17 de abril de 2021
Duração: 43 minutos
Duração: 43 minutos
Gênero: Etherpop, Steampunk
Produção: Babushka, Dark Bae
Compositores: Babushka
THEATER TRAGEDY RECORDS
Babushka, após passar muito tempo nos bastidores produzindo para artistas como Catherine Valentinova e Plastique Condessa, lança finalmente seu primeiro álbum de estúdio. Com a ajuda de Dark Bae, o álbum fala sobre uma montanha russa de emoções, e aborda temas como imaturidade e relações sociais.
TRACKLIST
1. Toxic and Mean
Babushka, após passar muito tempo nos bastidores produzindo para artistas como Catherine Valentinova e Plastique Condessa, lança finalmente seu primeiro álbum de estúdio. Com a ajuda de Dark Bae, o álbum fala sobre uma montanha russa de emoções, e aborda temas como imaturidade e relações sociais.
TRACKLIST
1. Toxic and Mean
2. Dark Summer
3. Anchor
4. This Time I Know There's No Return
5. Beautiful Pain
5. Beautiful Pain
6. Tunnel
7. Who's The Hangman?
8. Made Of Rage
8. Made Of Rage
9. The Blame
10. Trauma
LETRA
Baby I'm toxic and mean
Baby I'm toxic and mean
All I do, is on my own defense
And I never think on the consequences
Maybe I'm mean, that's why you won't stay
Like all the others, who had flee away
Maybe I belong alone
I might be a devil
Everything I touch, becomes a raised hell
I know that I got issues
And I'm toxic to others
I must belong alone cuz
I'm too toxic and mean
I know that I got issues
And you're showing me the truth
I must belong alone cuz
I'm too toxic and mean
Baby I'm toxic and mean
All I do, is on my own defense
And I never think on the consequences
Maybe I'm mean, that's why you won't stay
Like all the others, who had flee away
Maybe I belong alone
I might be a devil
Everything I touch, becomes a raised hell
I know that I got issues
And I'm toxic to others
I must belong alone cuz
I'm too toxic and mean
I know that I got issues
And you're showing me the truth
I must belong alone cuz
I'm too toxic and mean
I'm too toxic and mean
I'm too toxic and mean
I am that way, I only miss when I lose
A little bit narcissist, everything is about it
Maybe I belong alone
Cause I might be a devil
Everything I touch, becomes a raised hell
I know that I got issues
And I'm toxic to others
I must belong alone cuz
I'm too toxic and mean
I know that I got issues
And you're showing me the truth
I must belong alone cuz
I'm too toxic and mean
Maybe I only think about me
Maybe what you said is right
I must belong alone cuz
Im too narcissist and mean
I know that I got issues
I'm too toxic and mean
Maybe what you said is right
I'm too toxic and mean
I'm too toxic and mean
I'm too toxic and mean
I'm too toxic and mean
I'm too toxic and mean
Dark Summer
LETRA
If everything on this went terribly wrong
It's only because I still have some things to hurt
If I am not ready to open myself to the world
It's because all this pain is something I still deserve
Too much fight to end up completely alone, cry all night
Waste of energy, so let's reset it, again, and again
If I was trying to float on the sky of love
I fell again cause the floor is my place
If every try I made went terribly wrong
It's only because I still have some things to hurt
If I am not ready to open myself to you or anyone
It's because all this pain is something I still deserve
Dark summer, might kill me
Cause I don't know how to act in society
I don't know how to give you what you want
I'm trying to fly without wings
There's why I fell with my face on the floor
Years and years, living on my own world
Made me lost the sense, now I'm totally blindfold
And I'm trying to give you what you want
But it seens that my recourses are just not enough
I want to be better, I want to be more
I want to be something else
Now I'm ending here, alone
If everything on this went terribly wrong
It's only cause I still have some things to hurt
If I am not ready to open myself to the world
It's because all this pain is something I still deserve
It's only because I still have some things to hurt
If I am not ready to open myself to the world
It's because all this pain is something I still deserve
Too much fight to end up completely alone, cry all night
Waste of energy, so let's reset it, again, and again
If I was trying to float on the sky of love
I fell again cause the floor is my place
If every try I made went terribly wrong
It's only because I still have some things to hurt
If I am not ready to open myself to you or anyone
It's because all this pain is something I still deserve
Dark summer, might kill me
Cause I don't know how to act in society
I don't know how to give you what you want
I'm trying to fly without wings
There's why I fell with my face on the floor
Years and years, living on my own world
Made me lost the sense, now I'm totally blindfold
And I'm trying to give you what you want
But it seens that my recourses are just not enough
I want to be better, I want to be more
I want to be something else
Now I'm ending here, alone
If everything on this went terribly wrong
It's only cause I still have some things to hurt
If I am not ready to open myself to the world
It's because all this pain is something I still deserve
Anchor
LETRA
Everything is strange, and it's painful
Sometimes I can't barely breathe
I have no control, on my feelings
How I thought it would be?
No concentration, nothing is interesting
I'm totally numb and I can't even perceive
How I thought, I was ready?
I'm totally irresponsible
When you say "pay attention on me"
"Cause you're looking like, you're on another world"
'Please react, you're an adult so act like one"
Take some pills, everyday to, be a little more
I'm totally dope, but it just works, there's how it has to be
And it's the time you know you have to grow up but you don't know how
Everyday is just a challenge to keep living like a normal citizen
Experiencing the love, the work routine, everything is so loud and you can't shout
Taking care of everything, is so scaring, but somehow you hold on
Everything is hard, anyone sees, what you're paining inside
Anyone sees, you're strong, you're your own anchor (2x)
Sometimes I can't barely breathe
I have no control, on my feelings
How I thought it would be?
No concentration, nothing is interesting
I'm totally numb and I can't even perceive
How I thought, I was ready?
I'm totally irresponsible
When you say "pay attention on me"
"Cause you're looking like, you're on another world"
'Please react, you're an adult so act like one"
Take some pills, everyday to, be a little more
I'm totally dope, but it just works, there's how it has to be
And it's the time you know you have to grow up but you don't know how
Everyday is just a challenge to keep living like a normal citizen
Experiencing the love, the work routine, everything is so loud and you can't shout
Taking care of everything, is so scaring, but somehow you hold on
Everything is hard, anyone sees, what you're paining inside
Anyone sees, you're strong, you're your own anchor (2x)
This Time I Know There's No Return
LETRA
No, don't go, let's forget this time I fucked it up
Let me start it out again
I know it's the fifth time, but now I promise I'll not fail
Please reset, all the chances that I let burn
Tell me that I still have you, tell me that it can return
But you said this time, you said this time, has no return for us
And I'm trying the opposite, I'm trying to get together again with you
(You said, you said has no return)
How dare you, cut me from your life that way
I promise you that if I try again, the sixth try I will have success
I know I had said that, all the times you gave me chances to retry
But I promise that now will be different
I promise I'll treat this in therapy
You said this time, you said this time, has no return for us
And I'm trying the opposite, I'm trying to get together again with you
(You said, you said has no return)
I'm nearly giving up from you
And I don't wanna accept that I Iose
I only want to do you good
Now at the night I cry wanting you
I need to accept that this time there's no comeback
That I fucked it up again
But I don't wanna accept that I'm a mess and that's why I ruined everything with you, oh
Cause'
You said this time, you said this time, has no return for us
And I'm trying the opposite, I'm trying to get together again with you (2x)
No return, there's no return
No return, there's no return
No return, there's no return
No return, there's no return
Let me start it out again
I know it's the fifth time, but now I promise I'll not fail
Please reset, all the chances that I let burn
Tell me that I still have you, tell me that it can return
But you said this time, you said this time, has no return for us
And I'm trying the opposite, I'm trying to get together again with you
(You said, you said has no return)
How dare you, cut me from your life that way
I promise you that if I try again, the sixth try I will have success
I know I had said that, all the times you gave me chances to retry
But I promise that now will be different
I promise I'll treat this in therapy
You said this time, you said this time, has no return for us
And I'm trying the opposite, I'm trying to get together again with you
(You said, you said has no return)
I'm nearly giving up from you
And I don't wanna accept that I Iose
I only want to do you good
Now at the night I cry wanting you
I need to accept that this time there's no comeback
That I fucked it up again
But I don't wanna accept that I'm a mess and that's why I ruined everything with you, oh
Cause'
You said this time, you said this time, has no return for us
And I'm trying the opposite, I'm trying to get together again with you (2x)
No return, there's no return
No return, there's no return
No return, there's no return
No return, there's no return
Beautiful Pain
LETRA
When you break me and made me lost my senses
And I'm living through real bad days
When I have my feelings playing against me on this game
Don't worry about me, I will be fine again
It always has been that way, I'll not erase you from my head
I'll transform you in my beautiful pain
I'm feeling that I'm brokenhearted
And that the bad days will never fade away
I'm feeling that now I'm going insane
But it's all theatrical on my head
It always has been that way, I'll not erase you from my head
I'll transform you in my beautiful pain
I've got my ways to get by through it
Now I'm dead, but I'm just too dramatic
I'll transform you into a deceased art
And this painting will only exists on my mind
It always has been that way, I'll not erase you from my head
I'll transform you in my beautiful pain
I'll write a tragedy romance inside my mind, just to try to get by
I'll transform you in deceased art
You break my heart tonight, all I can do is just cry
But all I gonna do is transform you into my mind
To a dead and gone beautiful art
Tunnel
And I'm living through real bad days
When I have my feelings playing against me on this game
Don't worry about me, I will be fine again
It always has been that way, I'll not erase you from my head
I'll transform you in my beautiful pain
I'm feeling that I'm brokenhearted
And that the bad days will never fade away
I'm feeling that now I'm going insane
But it's all theatrical on my head
It always has been that way, I'll not erase you from my head
I'll transform you in my beautiful pain
I've got my ways to get by through it
Now I'm dead, but I'm just too dramatic
I'll transform you into a deceased art
And this painting will only exists on my mind
It always has been that way, I'll not erase you from my head
I'll transform you in my beautiful pain
I'll write a tragedy romance inside my mind, just to try to get by
I'll transform you in deceased art
You break my heart tonight, all I can do is just cry
But all I gonna do is transform you into my mind
To a dead and gone beautiful art
Tunnel
LETRA
I'm looking for some shelter
I'm lost inside this sick world
I need a hug of someone who says it'll get better
But I realize I walked away from everyone
I need to take my own hand and
Surpass the rain without look what gone
When everything you say isn't understandable
You need to hold your own hand
I'm passing through the tunnel of my pains
Without any map to show the way
It's hard to see the light on the final
It looks like I'll never find
It's dark and my vision is fading away
I really can't see the end
I'm alone crying in the silence
Of my indifference
On my own, I'm on my own
On my own, I'm on my own
On my own, I'm on my own
On my own, I'm on my own
When I'm broken without nothing to follow
I need to save myself from the storm
Storm sometimes I made on my head
But for me seens like the Armageddon
So I take my own hand cause
I think anyone will understand
All the pains I suffer all alone
And I think I'm better that way
Who's The Hangman?
LETRA
I'm lost inside this sick world
I need a hug of someone who says it'll get better
But I realize I walked away from everyone
I need to take my own hand and
Surpass the rain without look what gone
When everything you say isn't understandable
You need to hold your own hand
I'm passing through the tunnel of my pains
Without any map to show the way
It's hard to see the light on the final
It looks like I'll never find
It's dark and my vision is fading away
I really can't see the end
I'm alone crying in the silence
Of my indifference
On my own, I'm on my own
On my own, I'm on my own
On my own, I'm on my own
On my own, I'm on my own
When I'm broken without nothing to follow
I need to save myself from the storm
Storm sometimes I made on my head
But for me seens like the Armageddon
So I take my own hand cause
I think anyone will understand
All the pains I suffer all alone
And I think I'm better that way
Who's The Hangman?
LETRA
You said that since the start I am just raising hell
Like I'm the only one bringing pain
But did you ever asked what's going inside my head?
And what are you causing on myself?
Who's the hangman and who's the tortured?
Who's the hangman and who's the tortured?
We're on a masochist sentence
Where anyone can get out
We're self destruct to each other
We're destroying ourselves and we stay
Who's the hangman and who's the tortured?
Who's the hangman and who's the tortured?
You treat me like I'm giving the sentence
And you're the only prisoner
But I'm imprisoned the same way
If we cage each other why'd we stay?
Who's the hangman and who's the tortured?
Who's the hangman and who's the tortured?
I'm arresting you, you arrest me
We are our hangmen and our victims
Who's the hangman and who's the tortured?
I'm arresting you, you arrest me
We cage ourselves and we still on it
Who's the hangman and who's the tortured?
I'm claiming mercy, you're claiming mercy
We are torturing each other and we can't perceive
Like I'm the only one bringing pain
But did you ever asked what's going inside my head?
And what are you causing on myself?
Who's the hangman and who's the tortured?
Who's the hangman and who's the tortured?
We're on a masochist sentence
Where anyone can get out
We're self destruct to each other
We're destroying ourselves and we stay
Who's the hangman and who's the tortured?
Who's the hangman and who's the tortured?
You treat me like I'm giving the sentence
And you're the only prisoner
But I'm imprisoned the same way
If we cage each other why'd we stay?
Who's the hangman and who's the tortured?
Who's the hangman and who's the tortured?
I'm arresting you, you arrest me
We are our hangmen and our victims
Who's the hangman and who's the tortured?
I'm arresting you, you arrest me
We cage ourselves and we still on it
Who's the hangman and who's the tortured?
I'm claiming mercy, you're claiming mercy
We are torturing each other and we can't perceive
Who's the hangman and who's the tortured?
Why are we on these chains?
They're open, we just needed to flee
Who's the hangman and who's the tortured?
We don't need nothing to get out
We stay cause somehow we like it
I know my personality's kinda bad
But you're not the only suffering here
Made Of Rage
Why are we on these chains?
They're open, we just needed to flee
Who's the hangman and who's the tortured?
We don't need nothing to get out
We stay cause somehow we like it
I know my personality's kinda bad
But you're not the only suffering here
Made Of Rage
LETRA
(Rage, rage)
Made of rage
Cause there's only what persists
There's only what come always with me
Rage cause I break every good thing
Rage, so much rage of myself
Cause I don't give any value untill it fall
Rage cause I lost you just because we're kinda awful together and there's no one to blame
I have rage cause even if I made everything
To make this thing a piece of happiness
My chaotic way found out a way to make it complicated
So my defense pushed you away
You didn't came to me waiting the calm wave, but you weren't waiting for this storm
I have rage, rage of not holding you
I got you sick and tired, I have rage, I made an unnecessary turbulence for nothing
I'm sorry for this, I have rage, I'm made of rage
Too new at the love, you say I'm immature and have so much to learn
Maybe it wasn't to happen cause I'm too mentally young to understand the real world
Yeah I told you that I'm not good at emotions
Every emotion on me become a thunderstorm
I'm sorry if I don't know how to express it, I understand when you say that looks like I'm not here, so
Maybe I'm too immature to be with you, and it stills hurts like an open scar
I have rage, rage of not being so mature as I thought
Of acting like a teenager, I have rage, I made a unnecessary turbulence on your life
I think I'm acting my age, but you're some years far as me and I don't have what you need to make you feel good
Sometimes I look like a scared teenager, sometimes I look like an irresponsible adult (and it's confusing)
That's why I'm made of rage, everything on my head come intense and with rage
I have rage, I'm made of rage
Maybe I have rage
For thinking that I could handle a conflict inside my head
I thought that my adult side would hold everything fine with you
But honestly, I'm still made of rage, cause
There's so much fight to win for me
I'm starting to really coming out from my shell now
I have rage, rage of not being so mature as I thought
Of acting like a teenager, I have rage, I made an unnecessary turbulence on your life
Sometimes I look like a scared teenager searching for some light on my mind
I think I'm acting my age, but do I really need to feel rage of growing up? (no, I don't need)
Step by step, I'm conquering my rights on my own mind, and even if you don't like
I'll do it on my own time
Oh, oh, oh...
Time...
I'm doing on the right time...
And I have rage...
For being immature...
But I'm growing up...
But I'm growing up...
[Connection is the first basis of a relation.
You get ways to found connection when you share experiences.
So maybe It wasn't the right time, because your amount of experiences weren't the same, and weren't looking at the same objective.
And that's okay.]
The Blame
Made of rage
Cause there's only what persists
There's only what come always with me
Rage cause I break every good thing
Rage, so much rage of myself
Cause I don't give any value untill it fall
Rage cause I lost you just because we're kinda awful together and there's no one to blame
I have rage cause even if I made everything
To make this thing a piece of happiness
My chaotic way found out a way to make it complicated
So my defense pushed you away
You didn't came to me waiting the calm wave, but you weren't waiting for this storm
I have rage, rage of not holding you
I got you sick and tired, I have rage, I made an unnecessary turbulence for nothing
I'm sorry for this, I have rage, I'm made of rage
Too new at the love, you say I'm immature and have so much to learn
Maybe it wasn't to happen cause I'm too mentally young to understand the real world
Yeah I told you that I'm not good at emotions
Every emotion on me become a thunderstorm
I'm sorry if I don't know how to express it, I understand when you say that looks like I'm not here, so
Maybe I'm too immature to be with you, and it stills hurts like an open scar
I have rage, rage of not being so mature as I thought
Of acting like a teenager, I have rage, I made a unnecessary turbulence on your life
I think I'm acting my age, but you're some years far as me and I don't have what you need to make you feel good
Sometimes I look like a scared teenager, sometimes I look like an irresponsible adult (and it's confusing)
That's why I'm made of rage, everything on my head come intense and with rage
I have rage, I'm made of rage
Maybe I have rage
For thinking that I could handle a conflict inside my head
I thought that my adult side would hold everything fine with you
But honestly, I'm still made of rage, cause
There's so much fight to win for me
I'm starting to really coming out from my shell now
I have rage, rage of not being so mature as I thought
Of acting like a teenager, I have rage, I made an unnecessary turbulence on your life
Sometimes I look like a scared teenager searching for some light on my mind
I think I'm acting my age, but do I really need to feel rage of growing up? (no, I don't need)
Step by step, I'm conquering my rights on my own mind, and even if you don't like
I'll do it on my own time
Oh, oh, oh...
Time...
I'm doing on the right time...
And I have rage...
For being immature...
But I'm growing up...
But I'm growing up...
[Connection is the first basis of a relation.
You get ways to found connection when you share experiences.
So maybe It wasn't the right time, because your amount of experiences weren't the same, and weren't looking at the same objective.
And that's okay.]
The Blame
LETRA
You find out that your inside is broke
But you already had blamed everyone, and there's nowhere to run
The blame, the blame, won't bring a cure
Doesn't matter anymore, who had fucked my head, I'm on my own
Finally is time to grow up
Admit that I'm by myself, and everything bad I do is a choice
The blame, the blame, won't bring a cure
It doesn't matter
I'm no more a child
I need to rule my own mind
The blame, the blame, won't bring a cure
Doesn't matter anymore, who had fucked my head, I need to hold on
Doesn't matter anymore, cause the devil inside my head I make on, my own
Trauma
But you already had blamed everyone, and there's nowhere to run
The blame, the blame, won't bring a cure
Doesn't matter anymore, who had fucked my head, I'm on my own
Finally is time to grow up
Admit that I'm by myself, and everything bad I do is a choice
The blame, the blame, won't bring a cure
It doesn't matter
I'm no more a child
I need to rule my own mind
The blame, the blame, won't bring a cure
Doesn't matter anymore, who had fucked my head, I need to hold on
Doesn't matter anymore, cause the devil inside my head I make on, my own
Trauma
LETRA
I wake up everyday trying to fight again
The old fight I have inside my brain
And I want so hard to find someone to blame
It's so hard to live inside my head
I'm trying hard to be someone
I don't want it to lead me on
I am angry with everything around
Because I know that I can be more and there's something holding me on
And I wake up again the other day and
They still screaming inside my head
I accepted that maybe they'll never leave me
But I can learn how to ignore everything
Everyday they still living on my routine cause in reality they never had leave
Since the start of my life they were following me
Killing all the potential of what I could be
But everytime I feel it's the end of the times
I know it's the trauma, trauma, trauma
I know that it's not me saying that
It's trauma, trauma, trauma
And so everytime they comeback and sometimes they're so loud that I can't even think
They affect the way my relations goes trying to provoke me but I have to learn to not listen anything
Everyday is painful and hard to win every fight and sometimes I admit I lose
But I think I love me too much to stop searching who I am, and let they be in control
Even if I get tired of so much trying, even if I lay down on the floor and gets numb of just cry
I know I'll not give up and I'll not let they say who I am, cause I'm too narcissist to lose a fight
But everytime I feel I should be alone
I know it's the trauma, trauma, trauma
When I feel I'm not enough to anyone
It's trauma, trauma, trauma
The old fight I have inside my brain
And I want so hard to find someone to blame
It's so hard to live inside my head
I'm trying hard to be someone
I don't want it to lead me on
I am angry with everything around
Because I know that I can be more and there's something holding me on
And I wake up again the other day and
They still screaming inside my head
I accepted that maybe they'll never leave me
But I can learn how to ignore everything
Everyday they still living on my routine cause in reality they never had leave
Since the start of my life they were following me
Killing all the potential of what I could be
But everytime I feel it's the end of the times
I know it's the trauma, trauma, trauma
I know that it's not me saying that
It's trauma, trauma, trauma
And so everytime they comeback and sometimes they're so loud that I can't even think
They affect the way my relations goes trying to provoke me but I have to learn to not listen anything
Everyday is painful and hard to win every fight and sometimes I admit I lose
But I think I love me too much to stop searching who I am, and let they be in control
Even if I get tired of so much trying, even if I lay down on the floor and gets numb of just cry
I know I'll not give up and I'll not let they say who I am, cause I'm too narcissist to lose a fight
But everytime I feel I should be alone
I know it's the trauma, trauma, trauma
When I feel I'm not enough to anyone
It's trauma, trauma, trauma